What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Musician   Doo doo de doo waaaa doo de doo! (<-- That's you playing something.) Everyone appreciates the band/orchestra geeks and the pretty voices. Whether you sing in the choir, participate in a school/local band, or sit at home writing music, you contribute a joy to society that everyone can agree on. Yay! Welcome to actually doing something for poor, pathetic human souls. (Just kidding.)
Drama Nerd
Literature Nerd
Gamer/Computer Nerd
Science/Math Nerd
Artistic Nerd
Social Nerd
Anime Nerd
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What mental disorder do you have? Your Result: Paranoia   You are constantly thinking about what others may be saying about you behind your back. You may also feel people have conspiracies against you, or they are out to get you. In crowds you may feel like everybody is watching to closely.
Manic Depressive
OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)
GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)
ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder)
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What is your True Fear? Your Result: Commitment   Even though it may not always seem like it, deep down you are afraid of being committed to anything serious. You love the feeling of being carefree and not having anything tying you down. You're afraid that someone or something that may tie you down in life, will keep you from reaching other goals. You may also be afraid of getting hurt. You need to open yourself up more to possibilities and realize that sometimes it's good to be committed to something that you really care about. Just because you're an independent, free-spirited person doesn't mean that being committed to anything is going to change who you are.
Looked down on
Disappointment
Where Your life is Going
Being Alone
Losing Someone
Death
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This is skin is nice and simple. Perfect :D

Today was a pouring day ): That made my violin case wet, my shoes wet, and my crumpler bag wet. ): Shit. But in the end, I managed to arrive safely despite of the harsh condition.

Gah, had full ensemble for the first 3 hours. stupid stupid stupid. But at least I have learnt something from it. High notes and harmonics come with the sky high price (: And I've conquered that! Yipee!!!!!

Then the horror came, SECTIONALS. It lasted for about 4 hours STRAIGHT. Horrible is the word, Ms Ku drilled the shit outta us. Complete exhaustion was expected. Joey and I were glancing at the clock every few minutes (:

WTHWTHWTHWTH. WORKSHOP IS THIS FRIDAY. LALO IV HAS NOT BEEN TOUCHED BY ME SINCE DUNNO WHEN. GAH!!!!!!!

Came home after SE. On the way, Jolene let me and Jiemin listened to her LALO IV playing. Imba worhhs.

And the misunderstanding between me and wanyu has been resolved (:

AND SOME ASSHOLES CLAIMED THAT I LIKED HER BECAUSE OF HER WEALTH. "WHAT A FUCKING RIGHT GUESS" GET LOST. LOSER.

ok, off to watch 麻辣天后宫。buh bye~

hellos.

today has been a traumatic day. I went to the airport to send my brother off for his trip to Taiwan, and I didn't expect to meet any of past primary six people. But it turned out wrong. I met like probably 3 of them? lol. Chng Jin, then there was a guy from 1K and a girl whom I knew when I sat the same bus during primary 4. All looked the same except for the girl. She changed her parting and fringe, if I'm not mistaken. And I realised that Chng Jin was only there when I so accidentally turned my head and saw his face XD He seemed much taller, but he still wears the same green watch and he has the same figure XD haha, it sounds sick. but yea. I thought Ms Yeo would go there, but it turned out to be Ms Wendi Yeo, and not Wendy Yeo. Weird huh? lol.

After seeing my brother off, I got back to church to only realise Angel, Jon and Shaun were at the coffeeshop == so I walked from church all the way there and stoned there (: I bought green tea from Angel. haha. But I haven't returned her the $1. Angel remind me (: Then Gaby and Brigid came and join. And Jon was concocting some weird mixture that was sweet, sour, spicy and bitter. And he took a spoonful of it o.o haha. He said it tasted okay, but in the end he felt like vomitting. Took a stroll back and played table tennis. Was quite lousy for the first few matches but I quickly warmed up and was soon to go :):):) Played and played and Gideon managed to come up with a funny way of dealing table tennis. It's called Volble-teball. It's a mixture of volleyball and table tennis. We serve as per normal, then the net will act as the line separating both teams and each person gets to have at most two hits to try to return the ball over to the other team. Was quite fun. But tiring. And Subin's boyfriend is confirmed Michael. Angel smsed Subin and she replied XD haha. Angel even smsed Subin to ask her bf out for sunday school outing (: Imagine Subin and Michael ice-skating together... Aw... (:

Can't wait for sso. (Sunday School Outing). It's next week at Kallang doing ice-skating. Hope it'll be fun and Constance will sure be the laughing bag XDXD haha. Can't wait (:

One more thing. I'm sick and tired of receiving comments and etcetra. I'm going to retire from blogging one day. maybe. maybe.

{Brit's Circus is turning up soon. Am going to buy it!!!}

I'm turning into a couch potato sooner or later. Everyday, wake up, brush teeth, slack on the couch, reach for the remote control and there you go, television. Mtv, HBO, every channel would be carefully flipped through. I dunno how to spend my holidays fruitfully you know, except staring at my math assessment book and day-dreaming. I only manage to learn map scale, inverse and direct proportion, expansion and factorisation. That's all. Quite sucky right? 3.67 and yet I'm still slacking all day long? No need to mention my weight too. I bet it's rising steadily == Perhaps you all might think that I'm nuts to work for a macbook, but then everyone has its own aspirations and a macbook is the closest one. Immigrating to America would be another, but it's for the distant future. Well, I can only work hard for now, and prepare myself for the rest of my life. I hope I'll find some nice job (:

To wanyu: I dunno how to phrase it to you. But I do not know whether I still can trust you. Some person told me about how you have impacted your friends. I couldn't believe that you good do that. I tried to reason with myself, but the more I think, the more convinced I am. I am lost currently. I wish all these turmoil will end as quickly as possible.

And for bay camp (2-6 Dec), I'm worried I might be rejected because of my inactiveness or whatsoever. I'm considering not to join bay camp, but since my Sec 1 church classmates are going, I hope I'll be in the same group as them. And also for cell group, they're going to re-arrange the entire bay. What if I get thrown around and have no group? Sigh, I might as well stop going for bay...

That marks the end of my day. My internet connection will be gone in 10 more mins. What shit is this?

Had CG yesterday. At Uncle Michael's house. Me and a couple of other kiddos choreographed dance moves to Rihanna's Disturbia :D haha. But most of the time I was busy with my PSP. And the warriors is super FUN. I love doing their missions and go bashing up other gangs. And I get to be the warlord, vice-warlord and one of the comrades. I love this game, it gives me a bloodrush. But surprisingly, I get a side effect from playing this game o_o Brain damage. I always have headache after playing this game =.= but I'm so addicted to it.

Had SE on Friday. Sectionals from 1330 to 1530. Slacked. Jiemin/Jaymie was sharing her experience in Australia. And I realised Australia's way of education is really lagging behind Singapore. That's why I'm having second decisions on immigrating to aussie, uk and us. But I heard the ipods and macbooks over there are much cheaper than those in Singapore ): Shucks. After much sharing and slacking, we had a combined practice with the Senior High people. Faith got dragged to the front with Rodion. hahahaha (: Me and Joey were "chopping" the back seats. Had minor headache during practice. And the clock was moving so slowly... ohoh Shimin and Andrew look so compatible, as quoted from Jiemin, since they got about the same looks XD

My brother's flying off to Taiwan tomorrow. Hope he has a good flight == haha.

Something has been cropping up inside me. I do not know what is it.

And I feel like I'm some despicable shit of crap. Why can't I live a normal life like others and blog like some normal person? Why must I be the pathetic one to blog and get like jeered at for? I've attempted to change myself before. But no matter how much time I try, it always fail.

And I definitely know who you were pointing to. No doubt, you are pissed with me, but I do not see the point why you are fingering me? It's like I know you think I do not see you as a friend or whatever but I've been changing and trying to change peoples' perspective of me. And you know what? I failed. Sounds disgusting huh? But that's the reality. I do not care if you detests me sitting beside right you every morning, I know you must feel obligated to sit beside me, but this entire year 1 has been shit for me alright. I do not know why you must pin-point everything that you hate to me, can't you just say it right in front of me? You need not post it elsewhere. And you know something? You were the one that made me realize that being a loner is super "fun" okay? Ha, why am I even trying to post what I'm thinking about you on my blog. Also, I trust you did not block me, but can I even trust your words? Three sentences of whatever?

By the way, Bryan, if you ever see this post, I apologise for letting it out. That was because x linked it somehow then I blurted it out. I'm really sorry...

Third post. Rihanna truely inspires me...

And shit I can't access mixpod.com so no music currently T.T and the wording seems to be little messy but never mind ;D

Rihanna-- Take a Bow

how about a round of applause〖给你来点欢呼怎样?〗
yeah, standin' ovation〖再来个起立鼓掌〗


you look so dumb right now〖你看起来如此笨拙〗
standing outside my house〖呆站在我家门外〗
trying to apologize〖尝试着向我道歉〗
you're so ugly when you cry〖你啼哭的样子还真难看〗
please, just cut it out〖拜托别在我面前装模作样了〗

don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not〖你丝毫没有感到内疚时不要向我道歉〗

baby when i know you're only sorry you got caught〖亲爱的我知道你只是被人发现说谎时感到抱歉〗

but you put on quite a show〖但是你上演了一出很好的戏〗

you really had me going〖真的让我相信了你的谎言〗

but now it's time to go〖但现在一切将告一段落〗

curtain's finally closing〖所有的事情都落下帷幕〗

that was quite a show〖那真是一场精采绝伦的表演〗

very entertaining〖娱乐性十足〗

but it's over now〖但现在一切将随风而去〗

go on and take a bow〖为这出精彩的表演鞠躬答谢吧〗

grab your clothes and get gone〖收拾好你的衣物在我眼前消失吧〗
you better hurry up before the sprinklers come on〖你最好在细雨来临之前赶快离开吧〗
talkin' about girl, i love you, you're the one〖说什么我爱你,你是我的唯一之类的话〗
this just looks like the re-run〖只能让我感觉你又重新开始表演了〗
please, what else is on〖拜托你还有什么新骗术〗

and don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not〖你丝毫没有感到内疚时不要向我道歉〗

and the award for the best liar goes to you〖最佳说谎奖归属于你〗
for makin' me believe that you could be faithful to me〖因为你成功让我相信你对我的忠诚〗
let's hear your speech out〖让我们来听听你漂亮的演说〗
how about a round of applause〖给你来点欢呼怎样?〗
a standin' ovation〖再来个起立鼓掌〗

but you put on quite a show〖但是你上演了一出很好的戏〗
you really had me going〖真的把我忽悠了〗
but now it's time to go〖但现在一切将告一段落〗
curtain's finally closing〖所有的事情都落下帷幕〗
that was quite a show〖那真是一场精采绝伦的表演〗
very entertaining〖娱乐性十足〗
but it's over now〖但现在一切将随风而去〗
go on and take a bow〖为这出精彩的表演鞠躬答谢吧〗
but it's over now〖但现在一切将随风而去〗


Rihanna--Disturbia

bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum (what's wrong with me?)
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum (why do i feel like this?)
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum (i'm going crazy now)
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

no more gas in the rig
can't even get it started
nothing heard, nothing said
can't even speak about it
all my life on my head
don't want to think about it
feels like i'm going insane
yeah

it's a thief in the night
to come and grab you
it can creep up inside you
and consume you
a disease of the mind
it can control you
it's too close for comfort

throw on your break lights
we're in the city of wonder
ain't gonna play nice
watch out, you might just go under
better think twice
your train of thought will be altered
so if you must faulter be wise
your mind is in disturbia
it's like the darkness is the light
disturbia
am i scaring you tonight
disturbia
ain't used to what you like
disturbia
disturbia

bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

faded pictures on the wall
it's like they talkin' to me
disconnectin' your call
your phone don't even ring
i gotta get out
or figure this shit out
it's too close for comfort

it's a thief in the night
to come and grab you
it can creep up inside you
and consume you
a disease of the mind
it can control you
i feel like a monster

throw on your break lights
we're in the city of wonder
ain't gonna play nice
watch out, you might just go under
better think twice
your train of thought will be altered
so if you must faulter be wise
your mind is in disturbia
it's like the darkness is the light
disturbia
am i scaring you tonight
disturbia
ain't used to what you like
disturbia
disturbia

bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

release me from this curse
i'm trying to remain tame
but i'm struggling
you can't go, go, go
i think i'm going to oh, oh, oh

throw on your break lights
we're in the city of wonder
ain't gonna play nice
watch out, you might just go under
better think twice
your train of thought will be altered
so if you must faulter be wise
your mind is in disturbia
it's like the darkness is the light
disturbia
am i scaring you tonight
disturbia
ain't used to what you like
disturbia
disturbia

bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

Rihanna-- Shut up and drive

i've been looking for a driver who is qualified
so if you think that you're the one, step into my ride.
i'm a fine cool supersonics speed machine
got a sunroof top and a gangster lead

so if you feel it let me know, know, know.
come on now what you're waiting for, for, for.
my engine's ready to explode, explode, explode.
so start me up and watch me go, go, go

get you where you wanna go, if you know what i mean.
got a ride that's smoother than a limousine.
can you handle the curves, can you run all the lights.
if you can baby boy, than we can go all night.
cause it's zero to sixty in three point five
baby you got the keys.
now shut up and drive, drive, drive.
shut up and drive, drive, drive.

i got class like a fifty-seven cadillac.
start over drive with a whole lot of boom in the back.
you look like you can handle what's under my hood.
you keeping saying that you will, boy i wish you would.

so if you feel it let me know, know, know.
come on and what you're waiting for, for, for.
my engine's ready to explode, explode, explode.
so start me up and watch me go, go, go
get you where you wanna go, if you know what i mean.
got a ride that's smoother than a limousine.
can you handle the curves can you run all the lights.
if you can baby boy, than we can go all night.
cause it's zero to sixty in three point five.
baby you got the keys.
now shut up and drive, drive, drive.
shut up and drive, drive, drive.

cos you play the game, got what i got
get it get it, don't stop, it's a short shot
ain't a ferrari, huh boy, i'm sorry
i ain't need to worry, so step inside
and ride, ride, ride....
so if you feel it let me know, know, know.
come on and what you're waiting for, for, for.
my engine's ready to explode, explode, explode.
so start me up and watch me go, go, go
get you where you wanna go, if you know what i mean.
got a ride that's smoother than a limousine.
can you handle the curves can you run all the lights.
if you can baby boy, than we can go all night.
cause it's zero to sixty in three point five.
baby you got the keys.
now shut up and drive, drive, drive.
shut up and drive, drive, drive.

I'm high therefore this shall be my second post for the day.

And my url has changed YET AGAIN.

Yes I will revert back to my crapping season just that "est" is replaced to prevent my parents from viewing it (:

SO please relink and I apologise for the inconvenience caused ^^ very sorry...

My blog url : benjy-est-crapper.blogspot.com (:(:

AND FOR THOSE WHO HATE ME SO MUCH COULD YOU PLEASE KINDLY LIKE FORGIVE ME OR SOMETHING CAUSE I REALLY REGRET WHAT I HAVE DONE. AND PLEASE PLEASE LENG YUK UNBLOCK ME FROM AUDITION AND FELICIA PLEASE DON'T GET ANGRY 'COS OF THE POST AND I SINCERELY APOLOGISE FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE.

I think I need a book on blogging for dummies.

Seriously, perhaps tuition on blogging might help. I've been blogging crap these days =.=

Ok, anyways,

I BOUGHT RIHANNA'S GOOD GIRL GONE BAD: RELOADED AND DANIEL POWTER'S UNDER THE RADAR.

Wow. Their voices rock seriously.

And yep it's Sunday, but tomorrow there's no CCA (:(: Thankfully! But I'll be bored at home doing nothing but playing violin and doing my stupid assessments =.= T.T

But the only "fun" thing to do nowadays is going online or playing audition. ^^ My audition is showing signs of improvement. hahahaha :] And I'm obsessed with some robot dance which is quite retarded XD But it's kinda cool O_O

it means to like right something from wrong. If you get what I mean.

I feel stupid. Not because I failed my exams or something. I'm socially dumb. I can't like clique with people that I meet. Perhaps it's because of my introvert side. But when I'm with my friends I can go wild. WEIRD.

Sigh, had violin lessons today. And I guess I needed extra invigilation that's why my violin teacher asked me to come for practice today. I'm gonna do solo for this year's performance: Csardas by V. Monti. Sigh, I need to practise on the running notes and harmonics. It's not easy -,- really.

Sigh after coming back from violin lesson, I watched "Blackman". It was funny, but the characters were a little dumb XD

Sigh, I realised I have no aim in my lesson. I dunno if you can consider me as an amateur intellectual. I'm starting to like studying and macbooks. My stupidity is increasing and I think studies are very important. I need to visit a doctor. I'm going mad. T.T

Your Mind is Blue

Of all the mind types, yours is the most mellow. You tend to be in a meditative state most of the time. You don't try to think away your troubles. Your thoughts are realistic, fresh, and honest. You truly see things as how they are. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about your friends, your surroundings, and your life.

Your Love Element Is Metal

In love, you inspire and respect your partner. For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience. You attract others with wit and a bit of flash. Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you. Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life. You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past. You connect best with: Earth Avoid: Fire You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other

I've finally been enlightened and I know the beauty of a refined macbook (: I just must have it! Okay, enough of the "prophecy" that I am pursuing currently T.T It'll only be possible next year. Sigh...

Today was a totally boring day. Went to purchase Year 2 textbooks. Flipped through them. Nothing much.

Played violin when I came home. Sigh, tomorrow I need to attend violin lesson. My violin teacher shifted her schedule forward.

And I'm tired of typing. I shall slack for now.

Bye (:

i feel ruined today. didn't expected it to turn out that horrible. i am never going out again on a slacking day.

Another boring day perhaps.

Had SE today, it's becoming a routine. At least today wasn't as boring as previous sessions. Miss Ku focused on Violin 1 and 2 from 1430-1630 and then it was home :) We practiced some weird piece that had about 5 movements? And we spent most of our time on the first and second movements. The piece was difficult to handle with. High running notes sigh it's the horror. But anyways, time seemed to speed today and in a glimpse of an eye, it was 1630 alright. And Charlotte brought her macbook(: today and I went with Jiemin to view it XD. haha, but it was a short one and we left soon. Didn't get to talk to Wanyu 'cause Jiemin was about to leave ): And this shall be the ending of my post for today. Short and sweet. Bye.

I can't bring myself to play my violin. My fingers are stiff and can't move at all. T.T Sigh, and the reason I'm touching my violin is for the sake of the computer T.T What a disgrace I am. And my grade 8 is just next year. I don't feel the rush nor motivation. And like it's the holidays and I'm not excited in the least. I tried reading "the merchant of venice" today but nothing went in. Not to mention the rest of my collection. Absolutely out of the question. And I'm wondering how it'd be like moving back to tanjong rhu. Would it be better? haha I wouldn't know. But perhaps the classrooms will be cleaner and larger that's for sure.

So back to today, another day of worship at church. Today's speaker was Uncle Chang Loong. The message was okay, much better than the ones delivered by more senior pastors. And great news! Shaun responded to my message and brought his macbook today XD haha. And I was using it during break time and during his lesson I was bugging him to switch it on. lol. I was so busy turning on the itunes and blasting music. And also table tennis was of course. We played from 2 plus all the way to 6 XD It was fun and cool and stuff. I certainly enjoyed myself.

OH MY HOLY MAMMA. MY GRAMMAR IS DRASTICALLY ON THE VERGE OF COLLAPSE. AND MY VOCABULARY. PERHAPS I'M TURNING INTO SOME NUTTY FELLOW. MY ENGLISH HAS TOO UPHOLD ITS EVER GOOD REPUTATION! HAHAHAHA.

sigh. im back into emo mood. my life is in ruins. im soooo dead. wish me a lucky trip:)

GOD MY POSTS ARE RUINED T.T