hi. i have started afreshed. changed my url. and hoped that the day will be a better one. wish me luck. and please please. dont spam my cbox. and respect. and correct me if i said anything vulgar. sorry. cheerios. relink me. im no longer a crapper. im the emo-er.

the world will never abstain from evil. i have come to deliver it. receive and accept it. if not, prepare to face the endless torture. i wish you mercy. and the battle begins.

the emo-er will never be cheerful. the emo-er only kills...

This post is dedicated to Erasma:

1. Alyssa: You're cheerful, happy and sociable. It's fun working with you for IDMI (:

2. Leng Yuk: Nice seating with you on the bus every morning, and you never fail to fill me with endless information XD

3. Felicia: It was nice having to talk to you and be your friends. Maintain your cheerfulness!

4. Xuewen: Cool, stylish and outgoing. Talking to you makes me feel lively. Jys for SYF next year!

5. Ziran: Though I never talk to you frequently in class, your intelligence never fails to enlighten me!

6. Mabel: Though you may be shy sometimes, you blend well and appear cheerful (:

7. Janelle: Yo! haha. Your vocabulary is powerful! Keep it refilled from time to time!

8. Samantha: Cool and definitely outgoing. Keep up the liveliness in you and never let it die out!

9. Wanyu: Hi! haha. One of my nicest friends (: Thanks for your care!

10. Waikhei: Cheerful, though sometimes I look like a gangster to you o.o LOL.

11. Yiksheng: Never really spoken to you before, but then you're polite and kind! So jyjy!

12. Sibin: Yo! Just like Ziran, you're smart and polite! You should become a SC!!!

13. Priscilla: Hi! I see you emo in class alot, but cheer up! You have lots of friends that care for you! Smile (:

14. Xinyi: haha hi xinyi! You're one of the most outgoing girl I've ever known. And you did well for inter-class! Sorry for peeling your surgical tape! Sorry XD

I'll stop here for now. Will continue tomorrow (:

I will make this short and sweet.

Sorry to those who were insulted to my posts. I assure you, this will never happen again. The following blog will only be filled with posts ONLY when there are happy things to be blogged about. I dunno who those anonymous people are. And since you don't want to come and reveal your identity, I guess I can only give you an apology through here. Ok, enough said, this post will be the final post to end the emotiness and bad stuff. I shall look forward to a bright new day.

The skin has been shed and the light revealed.

Once again, benjamin signing off.

IT'S HARD TO BE SOCIABLE. PEOPLE JUST REJECTS ME FOR WHO I AM. I AM NOTHING BUT THE DUST OR WIND. I AM SOMEBODY OF NOBODY

YEAP 24 OCTOBER IS THE DAY I'LL NEVER FORGET.

And perhaps for you, wanyu, might be a miserable day. But guess what? It's hard to maintain this kind of relationship. My mum checks my phone. And gives me tons of pressure. And I'm trying my very best not to crank up before I go nuts and start to morph into something that isn't human. And to who was tagging on wanyu's blog, I dun agree with what you said. I know you're famous and well-liked in school, but I must say you're quite a nuisance and gossiper to dig your nose into so much stuffs and start to comment on people. It's okay to ignore me and go with your other friends, but I hope you'll wake up sooner or later.

I realised I'm very commentative on people. Perhaps I might consider being a journalist someday.

Back again to report the "wonderful" life of Benjamin.

And now even the eggs have melamine. How wonderful. Vegetables, eggs, milk, all of them have melamine. We might as well enter a period of early starvation and die faster! What a splendid idea.

And thank God for today. At least I'm able to go catch a movie with my church friends. Like what my church teacher Shawn said, I really think they are the only group that doesn't despise me or harm me at all. Or that's what I think. We went to watch HSM 3, and I assure you, it's worth the money. The first thought that came into my mind when it was mentioned that we're going to watch HSM 3, was that the show was boring and meant for primary school kids. Neither did I expect that the show turned out to be superb, and totally nice. Zac Efron was cool, and I didn't know that Vanessa Hudgens was the main female character till they screen the tributes at the end. The movie is super duper cool, and obviously I recommend people who have really nothing to do to go view it.

When I was watching the movie, I thought about many things. I was thinking of my way of life, and their way of life. It's completely two different thing. You don't see American parents being so open towards relationships between children, and you certainly don't see their children driving cars round and you OBVIOUSLY won't see the people there worrying and cramming for their tests. Sigh, their life is much more meaningful and healthy, as I might phrase it.

Later, we went to an apple shop where I was able to have a MAGNIFICENT view of ALL THE APPLE PRODUCTS. IPOD TOUCH, NANO G4, CLASSIC, MACBOOK, MACBOOK PRO, IMAC!!!!!! Wow, they're super cool. They were on display so I was able to touch them and try it out. It's really amazing that how apple can inspire people. Wow wow wow wow wow. I'm bewildered.

Ok, nothing much to say either. It's the same routine, practise violin, argue, emo, type, listen, play that's all. I'm tired all right. And the arcade was funn. Looking forward to watching twilight with them again on 12 DEC :)

The same feeling overwhelmes me over and over again, will the world ever flip and change?

Today I'm going to express myself in just one way.

I lead a stupid life, and I have two parents that are not understanding at all, not even in the least. I think they just find me a thorn in their flesh, and I shouldn't belong to the family. My computer is under their control even though it's the end of the exams. Probably they're trying to help me, but I just don't get it: Why can't they let me just this once to play all the games that I've ever wanted. I'm not asking for something expensive, I just want to play for that meager 2 hours that you have given me. And so, I'm already contented. You have grounded me to the point that I find suicidal better off. I just ponder when judgement day will ever come. I'll go back to meet my father and I'll truly be happy then.

Ok, enough said. Back to the sheets.

Glen just pisses me off with his red underwear and something just keeps on tickling me.

Somehow I feel that I'm misunderstood inside out. But I don't give a damn. And for my other speeches, I'll try to be more polite and not mess with vulgarities. [Response to wanyu and passer-by].

Ok, lots of things had happened during the past two days. On friday, after I got out of the computer lab and went back to class, something really bad happened. There was an ANT ATTACK. HAHAHAHA. Repeat: An ant. Sounds queer, ain't it? Lol, ok so there was an outbreak of massive piles of ants crawling all over the bin, and for sure the sight was horrible. Xuewen and I were freaking out cause somehow both of us has a phobia for a huge amount of ugly stuffs. And by natural reaction, I took out my quarter-filled bottle and started spraying at that irritating sight. Then the most stupid happened: my bottle ran out of water. T.T Just as I watched those yucky, festy insects crawl into the creeks of the wall, Ivory zoomed in with her water bottle and joined in the massive tsunami attack! GOOOOSH, the water just flooded that entire area, causing a huge wave of panic. Not to worry, the ants on the wall were exterminated quickly. Someone then proceeded to take a look at the bin, and as he/she shifted the bin to one side, TO OUR GREAT HORRER WE FOUND THIS HUGE NEST OF ANTS AND MAGGOTS CRAWLING ALLLLLLL ABOUTTTT. Then me and xuewen almost fainted. We ran around like some lunatic and flail our hands high up in the air. GOSH IT WAS DISGUSTING. I took the broom and started to crush the nest, laughing like a wild beast :) and soon I found this sticky thing stuck to the wall. YUCKS. We realised that the floor was wet to the wettest, and we found some yellow napkins to wipe them. The drawer in which the napkins were placed were full of "treasures", some of them covered with the glorious fungi :):) Ew, and I touched them. yuckyuckyuckyuck dirty. After covering the floor with the napkins, I took the broom and started to sweep water out of the class. And before I could stop myself, I swept the water containing ants and stuff towards Ivory, and she freaked out! Her shoes were full of dead ants :( and like totally wet. *SORRY IVORY T.T* lol ok then we continues sweeping and trying to clean up the entire mess. And we're done for that now.

Following that, xuewen's mango shake spilled on the floor and she tried to sweep it into the drain using the cup itself. Then we decided to cover it with the yellow napkins and it became a yellow carperted floor XD HAHA it looks kinda gross as well.

And wth, bryan, poh shin and peter went to hide my instruments as well as xuewen's. grrr, they claimed it was outside the class, when it was inside the class. LOL. Wasted so much time trying to find them.

Ok, then it was time for CCA T.T Boring, senseless, crapper with Joey and made it through those hours -DIE-

Met up with arthur and saw his guzheng ensemble playing. Zeng Jin was damn pro and played like some high-grade student while arthur was miserably trying to play a few notesXD haha. Waited for him to finish putting his instrument then went to the band area to wait for the band gang :)

Took the mrt home with them, didn't went to Tiong Bahru cause my mum wanted me to go for Bible Study (-.-) when the actual reason was for me to baby-sit those children. I faked them (the children, not my mum) that the room we were in was haunted, and they immediately freaked out. haha, weirdos!

Finally, celebrated my youngest brother's birthday. Ate there and crapped. Went home. Brushed teeth and sleep like a pig XD

Ok, end of story, whew. Now for saturday :):)

Woke up, found my parents missing. My thoughts started running wildly. I thouht they were going to abandon us. Watched mtv where they were featuring VMAS 2008. Saw the performances made by pussycat dolls and christina. Nice. Then went to brush teeth, and my parents came back. They bought me rice for breakfast. Fattening. Ate, slacked, watched TV like mad and soon I was eating soya curd. It was cooooool and damn shuang:) Went for violin lesson, was super quiet, and I was almost forced to do a solo performance for the class! Thank goodness I objected violently, if not I fear for that scenario for cup-stacking...

Went back home, saw these two girls kissing in public. LESBIANS. Yucks and one of the girl was wearing "zhonghua" uniform and she was pushing the other girl towards her. yuckyuckyuckyuck. Can't believe it.

I was bored at home, continued watching TV and managed to go for dinner. Came back home again, and slack till now. I just simply love to BLOG :)

DONE! whew what a long long post. My hands are aching.

AND YEA THAT ALUMINIUM 15-INCH MACBOOK JUST SIMPLY ROCKS TO THE CORE AND I SO WANNA BUY IT AT A LOW PRICE :):):):):)

GIMME THAT MACBOOK AND DON'T ALLOW IGNORANT PEOPLE TO COME AND SNATCH IT.

Hi. I'm currently in the computer lab, wandering aimlessly. And even though I'm "wandering", many thoughts have run by my mind and some are still etched deeply into it.

Firstly, it was the second post-exam activity today. Cup-stacking. And I was thinking perhaps this might be boring. But it turned out fun. I was chosen by people to represent 1E, but obviously some ill-breds jeered and gave that smirk look on their discriminated face. The person was GLEN. Got that? Yes you should if not you're as idiotic as him. He's a fucking jerk, discriminating people of any age. I believe he might as well enroll in a fucking bad school where his gang might be there.

And during the competition, I did badly. Expected. Out of my entire lifetime, I guess 8/10 times I would be beaten badly or perhaps embarrassed by myself. I did the stacking wrongly and the entire year 1 section was viewing it. DAMN. I should have objected violently. And after I was done, I walked back, my face was RED okay, and I was apologising all the way. Some people, you know who you are, gave that bitchy face with that idiotic look. So what? You think this is going to make me scared of you? Get a grip on yourself. You're a bitch and loser yourself. Might as well cry to release your ever stupid feelings.

Ok, after the entire activity was done, I went to the SC board to check the results of the interviews. Hopeless. I scrolled down to the class area 1E, and there were 3 participants. Xinyi, Aokun and Peter. I couldn't believe it. AOKUN? Sigh I surrender to fate, GOD does know how to make misery out of someone.

And that's the end of today's school day. Quite sucky, considering the fact that I am in ERASMA, the class where a few people just pisses me off. FUCK OFF. Losers, go back to where you all were. And stop being so cocky. Humble would be your remedy. Go seek it. And you, that ugly, snobby person, you must have too much water in your body. Go drain yourself.

Good, the steam is gone. And I must continue with my photoshop project. *fingers crossed* I have to prove to myself that I'm capable of doing it!

Why is the world filled with ignorant, bitchy people? GOD please guide and enlighten me!

I'm frustrated by so many times that I probably lost count of it. I guess it could be because I'm getting used to the idea of being a loner, with no friends to hang out. It was the first post-exam activity today. Art exhibition. Boring. Except for some of the paintings that attracted me which urge me to probe further into the drawing. Somehow it exposes me of my true self and I seem to "clique" with it immediately. The sugar cube was most interesting, with the exception of that horrible smell attached to it and of course the numerous insects lingering. Also, I believe that art can be expressed into so many forms regardless of whether the art can be hurtful or homosexual. It is to express an emotion. Sigh, I could regard today's activity as somewhat enlightening. I took a couple of pictures but somehow the computer just wouldn't allow me to send it over. I guess I have to wait.

After the exhibition, we were released at 2 at cityhall mrt station. Nothing much to yearn for, just boredom. Walked with Erasma till the mrt station then I decided to lunch at raffles city. Went with bryan and spent the entire afternoon. Went to starbucks as well but there were so many macbooks lying around. I sat at this round table where there was a good overview of two people whom one was using a macbook and the other playing audition. Interesting. The beverage I had was okay, but the chocolate tasted funny. Perhaps I'm not used to such expensive stuff? I need to get use to them soon.

Then went home and was quite bored. I ate with bryan donuts. Bought sweets for family and was really bored when I was alone. Tried playing the violin, but nothing came out. My second piece is in ruins. I need to practise.

And lastly before finishing, I wish that the person that kept giving me the idea that she is angry/irritated by me will one day clarify and perhaps resolve the problem once and for all. I need to stay connected for the next year so hence this is essential. Thank you. And I guess many of my previous friends aren't really close to me now, they sort of push me away, and it's really very hard trying my best to join that "gang" and not getting rejected most of the time.

Vying for that dream of a magnificent macbook and seeking God's understanding on some irritating boys in my class...

Ok, my results are finally OUT. And of course, it's not PLEASANT. And SC interview was today. Sigh, I think I might have flunk it. I'm so totally nervous and I tried giving a convincing reply but to no avail T.T Xinyi was in my group and she did SUPER WELL Her self-introduction was superb. Oh yar, and freak my timing for SC was supposingly tomorrow. But it clashes with the stupid POST-EXAM ACTIVITIES. It ends at 2 and we're being released at City Hall MRT station. wtf. And I guess I'm going to walk home alone. I'm really depressed. Perhaps I was never meant to be born into the world. Guess what? My mum found out the card wy gave me. And she started to nag and nag and nag and I was totally horribly irritated to maximum level I have ever gotten. And my father refuses to install HOUSE OF THE DEAD III. Even though it is meant for people 16 and above, I played it like 4 times and ACED it. Sigh, told you I was born in a tragic world.


Ok, here goes my stupid results:
Language Arts: B. Freaking shitty I could have gotten a A. Missed by 2 marks.
Math: B. It's a miracle
Geography: B. Duh. I love history
History: B. AND FREAK IT IF I HAD DONE THT 4 MARKS QUESTION PROPERLY I COULD HAVE GOTTEN A FREAKING A.
Science: A. :) that's a nice one. Bio was easy!
Malay: A1. DUH DO U HAVE ANY IDEA HOW EASY THE PAPER WAS?
Higher Chinese:C. 0.25 mark to B. WTF.

DONE. See how badly I had done? I hope for the average grade for gpa I would get a couple of more As and my chinese becomes B. I need to work hard next year!

Ok, job done. Emo time. and my family just makes me sad. Sigh, wish for GOD to call me home sooner or later. 3.5 for a MACBOOK :)

P.S. My CCA got me 8 points. Will it ever pull my gpa up? I'll never know.

GIVE ME A REASON TO LIVE...

YEA I READ YOUR POST OKAY.
AND I JUST WANNA SAY:
"THANK YOU".
AND YOUR SARCASM REALLY WORKS.
HAHAHAHAHA

LOL OKAY THANKS FOR ALL YOUR WORK THAT YOU HELPED ME IN.

AND FOR THE HOUSE OF THE DEAD III THAT YOU'RE BRINGING TMR, IT'S OKAY IF YOU DON'T WANNA PLAY IT WITH ME.

AND I WILL DEFINITELY REPAY YOU. DON'T GET EMO :):):):)

You Are Arial Black

You are bold, over the top, and quite loud. You'll stand up and stand up to get your point across. Subtlety isn't really your thing. You sometimes come off as crass and abrasive. You're not as passionate as people might think. You just enjoy overwhelming other people!

You Are Arial Black

You are bold, over the top, and quite loud. You'll stand up and stand up to get your point across. Subtlety isn't really your thing. You sometimes come off as crass and abrasive. You're not as passionate as people might think. You just enjoy overwhelming other people!

Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant-Garde

You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog. You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head. Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent. You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.

You Should Get a PhD in Liberal Arts (like political science, literature, or philosophy)

You're a great thinker and a true philosopher. You'd make a talented professor or writer.

You Would Choose Love

Money may buy a little happiness, but not the happiness of true love. You rather have a true soulmate than a private jet. And while many people may claim they would choose love too... You're one of the few who would really do it.

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"Tell them I said something."

Your Celebrity Baby Name Is...

Tallulah Coco

What Benjamin Wan Means

B is for Babycakes E is for Easy N is for Nookie J is for Jamaican Me Crazy A is for Almond M is for Muffin I is for Ice Cream Sandwich N is for Nookie W is for Wuggle Bear A is for All Mine N is for Nugget

Your DJ Name Is:

DJ Scratchin' Alien

Your Mind is PG-13 Rated

Your mind is definitely a little dirty. You're naughty, but not trashy. You don't shy away from a dirty joke, and you're clearly not a prude.

Do You Have a Dirty Mind?

Your Power Level is: 63%

You're a very powerful person, and you know that all of your power comes from within. Keep on doing what you're doing, and you'll reach your goals.

Your Body's Element is Water

You are a joyful, relaxed, and luminous person. You love people. You live for making new friends and helping others. You are enthusiastic and the ideal person to work with. You don't mind doing hard tasks, and you have a generous spirit. Your energy tends to be: conserved You power color is: black

Your Life is Better Than 80% of All People

You really have things pretty good - so stop a minute and appreciate how great your life is. You likely have a cheery outlook, supportive friends, and plenty to keep you happily busy. You are usually content - and with good reason. You have a lot to be happy about. So when things don't go well, remember that you have it better than most people!

Your Life is 78% Off Track

If you're honest with yourself, you have to admit that you often feel like you're living the wrong life. It's a pretty easy conclusion to come to - because it seems like not a lot is going right. Consider finding a life coach or mentor. You need some encouragement in turning your life around.

Your Funky Japanese Name Is

Tukunozuyamekino

Once again I have changed my skin. And I need to rectify that this skin I have used is meant to keep me cheerful so please do not get the wrong idea -.- Okay. I was horribly bored today. Another day of slacking, playing of computer games. Sigh, and today was the perfect day that I'd to start practising my grade 8 pieces. My fingers are totally burnt (?), and my neck was aching. Sigh and I might as well go mad. My parents just called me an addict. Pfft, I'm super pissed with them. They sure know how to spoil my perfect holiday. Sigh, I'm really

BORED BORED BORED BORED

I just feel very useless, and I feel sort of drained. I might perhaps do a quiz later. Bye!

Ok, the freaking big words that you seen in the previous post is MAKING ME GO NUTS. WHAT THE FCUK.

I'm officially experiencing the bored-est time in my LIFE.

Sigh, after EOYs ended, I realised that I can't have FULL BLOODY ACCESS TO ALL THE GAMES THAT I PLAY. Yes that's right, my freaking father gets all sorts of controls all over my computer, and my computer can't take it. It hangs randomly, and this gets on my NERVES all lot. I want to get my OWN FREAKING COMPUTER. But my parents said, "NO 3.5, NO MACBOOK." Wtf. This is so completely getting on my nerves...

Urgh, enough of the complains, I woke up this morning at 8.30. I totally forgot about the "not going to school" day and I kinda freaked out :) Then suddenly a brainwave came and I remembered it was a "After EOYs and I can skip school" day and I started laughing like a lunatic. HAHA><. I played DOTA, GTA3, and I was completely bored. I was suppose to play table tennis with church friends, but then nah it didn't work out. Sigh, watch MTV but its super boring. I almost slept, then woke up by this freaking drilling noise coming from above. *CURSES*

Then I blog-hopped, tagged a lot, and almost faint due to excess boredom. I miss the primary school days where you go back to school to play card games with your classmates. I remembered using the uno cards as poker cards and the poker cards as cash. We "gambled" using that. In the end the banker became broke XD

Then I argured with her 'cause somehow she was oversensitive according to her bestie. Sigh, whatever...

OK I SHALL GO PLAY SOMEMORE GAMES T.T I MISS THOSE DAYS...

GOT TAGGED BY WANYU :)

Birthday month-Colorful
Not applicable to me-Italics
Applicable to me-bold with colors

Tag 10 people from your friends list:

1. Gaby
2. Angel
3. Constance
4. Xinyi
5. Zijie
6. Kelsey
7. Weige
8. Jiayi
9. Yuhan
10. Faith

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous>>[maybe just a little bit] Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention(HAHA I love attention!). Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally(Ego ahaha). Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic. Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance->http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

November: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors.[you have GOT to be kidding me!!!] Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises [I love being praised??]. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

HELLO PEOPLE I'M OFFICIALLY HYPER :)

Haha, today was my birthday, but inter-class was going on at the same time. I had hoped for the netball & basketball team to win, but you know, fate does has its own way XD. I took my old mp3 out to hear music today, and the volume was freaking LOW, so I turned it up real HIGH , until my ears were hurting like shit and I convinced myself I can hear at a low volume. As I wasn't participating in any of the inter-class and stuffs, so I went back earlier. Ordered macdonalds for lunch, I wasn't exactly full, but I needed to lose some weight before I become a massive gigantic FAT, OBNOXIOUS PIG. Ok, I'm going too far. Then I went to play DOTA, and I managed to complete about half of it. Then my mum came home and bought me this disgusting curry puff. I ate it bcos mentioned earlier I was terribly hungry. Gah! Ok, then I watched a little bit of tv, saw "boiling points" on mtv, LMAO. Then we ordered macdonalds AGAIN FOR DINNER AND ALSO A OREO CHEESE CAKE. Surprisingly I ate quite a portion and I started to play audition. Excess food+Playing= FATS FATS FATS!!! This equation is totally true. Ok, I'm being chased by my naggy father, HE COMPLETELY FREAKS ME OUT WITH HIS NAGGINESS. OHOHOH, SHIMIN AND WANYU AND FAITH MADE COOKIES FOR ME:) AW, HOW NICE! THANKS!:):):) Ok, that's all for today and...

THANK YOU ALL WHO WISHED ME HAPPY BDAE AND GAVE ME BDAE PRESENTS!!! YAY!!! :):):)

Hi peeps. I just got back from my violin lesson and I seriously think I needa "mug" for grade 8. Sigh, I can't play my dominant sevenths and diminished sevenths properly, I guess it's shit for me. Haha :)

Anyways, I realised that I HATE my freaking brothers. Sigh, how i wished I had a older brother or sister instead of two irritating, suckie brothers. They're obsessed with their military and stuffs, and they are complete retards. GAH! When I see those people with older siblings, I sort of admire them? I dunno. But it seems that when you have an older sibling, your results are POSITIVE. Cos they help you in a way? Yea, that's my intuition I guess. Sigh, I guess it's fate after all. I've to live with it! T.T

Ok, I gotta go mug. Wish me luck for math and science. Last two papers before my birthday!!! YAY! :):):) *Fingers*

Person doing the quiz:Lee Wan Yu
Time that you started doing the quiz:8.20
*Your school uniform does NOT count!

1.Count your pants.How many do you have?----->10. 5 bermudas, 5 jeans :)
2.Count your skirts and dresses.How many do you have?----->NONE. I'm a guy...
3.Count your underwear [this is purely random].How many fo you have?----->COME AND SEE
4.How many of your clothes in your closet are broken/too small/torn/faded/just really old?----->2. Including tht one tht has a BIG HOLE.
5.What colour dominates your closet[the main colour of your clothes]?----->Dark green, black and white. EMO :(
6.Do you like that colour in Q5?----->DUH, it describes me, kinda!
7.What colour would you like to dominate your closet?----->Black and dark blue :)))
8.What have you done in your closet?----->ERM HIDE???
9.What would you like to do in your closet?----->EMO AND DIE! HAHA
10.Is your closet going to explode?----->Yea, The pole supporting is cringing. O_O
11.How many jackets do you have?----->One jacket. And a windbreaker
12.Do you want more jackets?----->Nah, I love my cosy jacket :):):):)

TIME TO TAG!!!
1. Xuewen
2. Gaby
3. Deying
4. Bryan
5. Wai khei

Hahas enjoy!

Hi, just blogging to let off the steam in me. Gah, today was chinese paper 1. Had to write si han and chinese comp. I hope that my si han format was correct, if not I'd be tearing myself apart if I lose marks on format. AND FOR CHI COMPO, it was all SHIT. I chose about a topic sth abt arrogance? I dunno. In chinese it's man3 bu4 jiang3 li2. HAHA. My chinese sucks alright. Gosh, I'm so gonna fail it, and my church frens had to have her exams finished TODAY. OMFG. Tmr is GEOG. And I still haven't remember some of the IMPORTANT INFO that I should be memorising. Oh wells, let nature take its course XD

Ok, I talked with WY like for damn long and we tried to conference call but it was somewhat impossible. Possibly our phones were EXPIRED. HAHA. Sigh. slacked the whole afternoon and /I start thinking abt ppl who hates me.

This is my response to them:

1. ******* *** ********
Sorry if I irritate you or somehow, but I wouldn't bother you anymore :)

2. ***** *** ********
I know I've been a pest, especially that day. Sorry for ruining ur 3 months, but then desole...

3. ** ** ****
You like mine, I know. Sigh, perhaps it's just fate? I dunno.

Yesh, I emo-ed for awhile. I guess those people will never ever forgive me. Next year I'll be in the same class as them. I hope all will settle soon...

Ok, the steam has been let out. I have to returned to my solemn study table to revise for geog while my frens happily enjoy the hols. BWAH. I'm fainting sooner or later...

Hey guys. Was blog-hopping just now. And sigh, I realise everytime I change my blog skin, there's bound to be somemore who has a much better skin than my blog. And then I emo, and I start thinking of all the tragic incidents and so much stuff that I can get myself into a state of depression. I want to VOICE IT OUT, but I just can't! T.T Sigh, and I end off sleeping and forgetting everything...

Oh wells, I've decided to fall in love with language: Malay. English. French. With the exception of Chinese. You got it. The most horrible subject ever in the entire WORLD. Can you believe it? A composition is upon 70 horrid marks. And I barely pass with a pathethic mark of 55? Whew, and talking of the coming exams, My geog is gonna so FAIL ME. I'm currently revising with WY, but nothing gets in! DRONE... I'm gonna fail and it's so not fair tht Most of the Schools are going to be finished with their exams... eeeeeyeeeer. Then they can PLAY HARD TILL THEY DIE!
O_O

And mush just bought her O' Magnifique W890 phone. ENVY ENVY ENVY. 8 GB internal memory!!!!! That's ultrasonic cool. Sigh, wait till my iphone comes, I'm gonna swirl it round her cap and she'll faint! XD HAH!

THE QUIZ-THAT-IS-MEANT-PURELY-FOR-FUN AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Yesh I have created another quiz!!!THE MOST SHOCKING QUIZ IN THE WHOLE WORLD.PREPARED TO DROP YOUR MOUTHS OPEN:)
*Created By LWY

PURELY...lets see how pure and angelic we are:) :
-Are you horny?=======Sometimes XD
-Have any sick images EVER popped up in your mind?YES hugging is considered sick HAHA=======Well, yar. HAHA
-Most revealing stuff you have ever worn=======That swimming trunk. OMG IT WAS HORRENDOUS.
-Sickest costume EVER=======A plain t-shirt with a hole at the back... It got ripped off when i rushed thro the door and the shirt sorta got stuck in the handle... :)

FOR...personal personal:
-Girl you care for in the whole wide world=======Uh duh! WY:))
-Guy you care for in the whole wide world=======I dunno. HAHA.
-Person you have talked to on the phone the most=======WANYU
-1st person you took neoprints with=======Never take neoprints bfore. It's not a GUY'S thing.
-The person who has taken up the most space in your handphone's inbox=======WANYU
-Person you HATE in the whole wide world=======LOTS. And I shall exercise discretion:)):):)

FUN...HMHMHM...:
-Presents you want for your birthday=======OMFG A MACBOOK AND IPHONE. GIMME THAT AND I'LL AGREE TO ANYTHING YOU SAY! [don't get ridiculous]
-Stuff you last chewed[food...paper...nails...]=======KENTUCKY FRIED CHICKEN. YUMS XD

xxx~~~*LAMEST QUIZ EVER!!!!!!!!---The Top 10s*~~~xxx

Created by:LEE WAN YU

Date:24/9/2008

Copyrighted?OH YEAH.You don't claim that you made that quiz oKAYYY

RULES: Heh heh simply answer the questions![Since I created this quiz,I'm gonna DEMO for you all.]

TOP 10 Favourite Songs Right Now:

1.Womanizer-Britney Spears

2.Gimme More-Britney Spears

3.Break The Ice-Britney Spears

4.A Thousand Miles-Vanessa Carlton

5.Damaged-Danity Kane

6.I'm Yours-Jason Mraz

7.Crazy For This Girl-Evan and Jaron

8.Home-Chris Daughtry

9.Fergalicious-Fergie

10.4 Mintues-Madonna ft Justin Timberlake

TOP 10 Closest Friends in your current school [Gals]:

1.Wanyu :)

2.Felicia

3.Xuewen

4.Samantha

5.Xinyi
6-10. All the rest? XD

XD

TOP 10 Closest Friends in your current school [Guys]

1.Arthur

2.Peter

3.Bryan

4.Zijie

5.Daryl

6.The

8. Rest

9. Of

10.You :)

TOP 10 People you miss from your Primary School [If you ARE in Primary School,put your old classmates]:

1.My chubby partner: Cherry XD

2.Kai Xiong & Kai Xiang

3.Cheryl the EMOKIA

4.Weihing

5.Aloy

6.Isaac though ********* gets him

7.Chng Jin. SMARTTTT

8.Rest

9.Of

10.6/1!!!

TOP 10 Hobbies:

1.Surfing da net :)

2.Playing Computer

3.Playing NDS

4.Playing PSP

5.Using my phone XD [to sms]

6.Singing my fav. songs! WHOOOO

7.Annotating POEMS.

8.Watching TV programmes

9.Hanging out with frens!

10.Slap Feli on da BACK! BUAHAHA

TOP 10 Persons/Objects/Animals/Things you have pretended to be:

1.A GEOG teacher. HAHA.

2.A news reporter:)

3.A character in Digimon...

4.Britney Spears O_O

5.A hairdresser. I LOVE to play with the correction tape!

6.A chef. XD

7.A nerd. Baggy clothes and huge, retro specs!

8.A backpacker!

9.A maid fighting against my ever-untidy desk :)))

10.A weird, hyper person!

TOP 10 Career choices:

1.AN APPLE EMPLOYEE!!!

2.A designer for electronic devices!

3.A violinist

4.A lawyer

5.A banker

6.Some *talented* song writer!!!

7.A Music Video Director

8.A scientist experimenting in inventing *TIME MACHINE*

9.A couch potato!!!!!!

10.A sales manager:)

TOP 10 Things you want NOW:

1.World Peace XD

2.To be a GREAT APPLE MANAGER!!!

3.To get a MACBOOK/TABLET.

4.To go out with friends on the last day of exams

5.A crumpler. Western Lawn brown edition :):):)

6.For my birthday to come quickly

7.To graduate violin grade 8

8.To parachute in the sky :)

9.To become more sociable and smart heh heh. Switch brain!

10.To not feel guilty over and over again!

Ok, done! LALALA i shall try to create a quiz someday! :):):):):):):)

HAHA RIPPING A QUIZ FROM GONG!

BIOLOGY
Q.Are you right-handed or left-handed?
--leftie.
Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
--Teeth. I remembered that tragic event...
Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
--MY crumpler filled with stuffs under my DESK!
Q. Have you ever been knocked out?
--no:)

BULLSHITOLOGY
Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
--Perhaps, then I could try changing moi fate:)
Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
-- Benedict. Benjamin sounds so benjamin O_O
Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
-- WHITE? BLACK? BOTH?
Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item?
--Paper. I remembered those p4 days... heh heh

DAREOLOGY
Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
-- perhaps XD
Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
-- NOPE. unless amount changes to $200,000.10 :)
Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000?
--no. MAke tht $500,000 and I'll consider
Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
-- depending on the person who gives me da MONEY
Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
--NO. GOD

DUMBOLOGY
Q. What is in your left pocket?
-- AIR
Q. Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
--Wassit the one where Napoleon blew himself up? [dumb]
Q. Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
-- Neither. [marble]
Q. Do you sit or stand in the shower?
-- stand.
Q. How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
-- eh, 4, considering old flames?

LASTOLOGY
Q. Last person who texted you? Yunqi. surprisingly. abt wy.
Q. Last person who called you? -- wy. i didnt pick up O_O
Q. Person you hugged? -- A girl from my previous class.

FAVOURITOLOGY
Q. Number? -- 100
Q. Season? -- Winter :D
Q. Colour? --Biru, hitam, ungu, jinggu XD

CURRENTOLOGY
Q. Missing someone? --kinda?
Q. Mood? --HYPER
Q. Listening to? --I'm Yours- Jason Mraz
Q. Watching? -- /nut cracker [recommended by bryan]
Q. Worrying about? -- the freaking EOYs
Q. Wearing? -- Giordano shirt

RANDOMOLOGY
Q. First place you went this morning? --TOilet!
Q. What can you not wait to do? --?Use my god-forsaken comp!
Q. Do you smile often? -- perhaps?
Q. Are you a friendly person? --maybe XD

HAHA done. Now i shall tag five ppl:
1. Brianna. Get it, don't you? XD
2. Wanyu
3. Gaby
4. Zijie
5. Cherie

HI GUYS!
Finally blogging after a period of time of hardship, dreadful experience, death scenes etc.! I feel refreshed! And I love the skin I chose. HAHA XD. I love GOD. HOLYYYYYYYY:) And I'm totally in love with french, and I intend to pursue it to A levels standard XD Well, if God allows me to do so! Oh wells, I'm blogging at a very late time, and I'm the only one who's kinda awake. Freaking though, but WHO CARES! hahahahaha! Ok, I'm going hyper. haha.

Today was LA poetry analysis and also malay paper. They were two of the few easy papers I've ever done before. Nama awak siapa? HAHA. I did question 2 for LA. It was on this old beggar who was so thin and stinky. Gah, I suddenly thought of the crying scene where xy was crying so passionately! LOL. XY pls dont kill me! lol. Bwah, I did some thinking about my exams, and I realised I SUCK. I studied just becos there was a gift in front of me: macbook. But it turns out that we're suppose to score for OURSELVES AND NOT INCENTIVES T.T Sigh, it really got thro' my brain, but oh wells, I'll still continue to pursue for a personal comp as far as my stand allows me too (: I might love a tablet. If only apple churned out a APPLE TABLET. OMG THEN I'M SO BUYING IT! hahaha ok, I just kinda run thro' history, reasons for studying it... features all the crap. I might as well "photocopy" the info and regurgitate it out on the day of hist. exam. Hahs. LALA. OH yar, I'm gonna get emo. Really, these few days make me regret bring born into Earth! I wanna commit suicide then I can disappear! *That sounds GOOD*

Gawd, burdens are everywhere. Commitments, exams, chruch, urgh so many things to balance out. I might as well be a holy being and be a perfect SAINT. Goosh, I'm talking crap. Hence the name: benjy-da-crapper. HAH!